Poetry: what keeps me going. more or less.
By: Natasha Aidoo
if you knew the lengths
I’ve gone through to be here.
in this precise instant.
to be crying in my bed. tears end up in my ears.
there’s a slavic term for it. i don’t recall it.
to hold onto music with all of my being.
feeling so much while soaring
laying in a meadow
in spring.
the bright blue light of a dawn
that stretches on the beach,
a glimpse of saudade.
these tears are soothing.
they differ from the ones i couldn’t stop,
that needed to escape your soul.
you spat them out.
twisting freedom.
Cocteau Twins bring me back.
i become weightless and
in harmony with the cosmos.
the ritual that transforms my mornings,
cereals and Slowdive.
I wink at their sound. at my somewhat pindaric flights.
stumbling fragile creature
with winged eyes and stone fragments in her pockets.
I jump on the volcano. lava refreshes my desires.
holy sanctuaries on the ceiling.
most thoughts unravel in intricate fantasies.
morph the language in a twinkle.
silhouette frozen on the scene
while euphoria leaks from her eyes.
my love has never been.
a bittersweet realization
that echoes in the dark.
gomitolo* in orbit, flee with the letter.
I’ll take you in my dreams.
I’ll
*Italian for ball of wool